All I ever…
by Me
I see the way that he treats you.
The way he talks to you, the things he makes you do
And I see the way you love him
Unconditionally, faithfully but blind
I hear the quarrels, the unspoken side of your fights
The whisper you moan while tears fall down your eyes
I hear silence between the beats, I hear something cry
I hear it mourn over the broken pieces, over the biggest lie
I smell the fragrance of obscurity and the way you pretend
The rottenness of the words that come out when you attempt to mend
There used to be a truth but I don’t see the point anymore
All I see now is hidden and planted as if there was something, as if there is
All I ever wanted is you to notice me, love me (To leave that zero and go with the hero!)
But all I ever see is nothing..
All I ever wanted is you to appreciate everything that I do
But all I ever see is nothing… and everything about you
I sense the grief coming next after sorrow which comes after sadness
And from you, I don’t sense any, care or a feeling of distress
How could you be so hard, you could just be my light?
Why would you waste everything, we could just be.. Just be
I know we can’t be, I am nothing compared to him
I know this is pointless and dull but this is all I have and all I can hold on to
I know I’m stupid enough to fall for someone like you
But I don’t want to know if you’re just mean enough to let me
It hurts when I remember the days I offered my hand
When I offered my shoulders for you to spill your tears on
You whisper a name, not mine, but someone else’s
Probably you wondered why I act like that, now you know
All I ever wanted is you to notice me, love me (To leave that zero and go with the hero!)
But all I ever see is nothing..
All I ever wanted is you to appreciate everything that I do
But all I ever see is nothing… and everything about you
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made it in few minutes. I don’t know why I wrote this type of poem but I just felt to do so. Was it from my heart or not, I don’t know. Maybe I this is what I feel, maybe not.. And nobody knows :[