Posts Tagged ‘summer’

first day in III-Sodium. It wasn’t ‘a okay’, but it was fine(OMFG whats the difference?)..

today,after getting dismissed, we had a bit of talk about random nerdy stuff(topal people). Things that tickle our brains and things that torture some.

I saw different kinds of reasoning from different personalities. Although some of the things said, err, most of the things, were jokes. Some turned out to be justly worth thinking. And apparently, these things were at the nerdy level. And I guess experts won’t even be able to give satisfying answers. You’ll see more of these things probably some time.. But for now.. Imma go to bed go get some F&@$^& sleep! 😉

today is the last day of summer. serves as the transitional phase to the school year. equivalent to earth layer discontinuities. same as the burger patty in a hamburger. the 2 letter D’s in the middle. it’s supposed to be different in a special way. but why is it this dull?

i feel like there are gray clouds forming inside me. heavy wind carrying depressing heat circles my whole body. my mind stays abnormally calm and strangely peaceful. things seem to be so different today than what they were yesterday, and few days ago. is this just psychological or something’s really wrong with my system?

it took me a lot of hours to sleep last night, approximately 5 hours in bed. awake. somehow peaceful but problematic.

apparently, it’s about me and the incoming school year. i can’t really tell what’s bothering me. am i nervous? not really. scared? maybe.. excited. hell no. i am writing out of my consciousness right now. i just key in stuff that come out my mind and chest. i feel so dull.

all i can say, after analyzing this output,, is.. I am definitely not ready yet. whatever might happen. I am not sure if I can work it out. I’m just having a feeling of doubt and trouble, i guess. Anyone please, say something that’ll comfort me.. And will give me strength D:

whats up? for me.. there’s quite a lot.

summer. is about to end few days from now. i regret the days i thought i was plainly bored. But i know that I was having fun. I don’t really curse the days that i was sitting under lazy afternoons doing nothing. In fact, I enjoyed those days. It’s so sad that all of these things are coming to this horrible end. These things are now part of the past, and these experiences are now just memories that all i can do about is treasure, just treasure.

all right. this post isn’t really about my summer ending. its about the beginning of the school year which i find real shit. I’m in III-sodium(Na) now. And i don’t find it interesting as well. I do not like the mixture of students.

I never mentioned this to anyone but this sectioning is so far from the sectioning i had in my mind throughout this summer. I’ve always thought that 3rd year’s gonna be the happiest year in my stay in pisay. I had day dreams that pictured the perfect section i’ll be having and sadly, it’s not this year. It could be next year, it could be not. That’s quite disappointing.

if you’re a classmate of mine reading now, I’d like to tell you i am so sorry but i hate our section. It’s clear that it’s the section i hate not the students so don’t think i am messing up at this early.

so there. If you’re a III-Na. You already know that It’ll be quite uncomfortable for me so please let’s make the best out of what we have. I’m still looking forward to a fun year with you guys! welcome back..

summer boredom

Posted: March 17, 2008 in ego, love, random-nes
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let us start of with this.
if wordpress pays all the bloggers a penny for every thought they have,
I’d be richer by only 1 penny then D: there’s only one thing that’s in my mind right now. well what do you expect from some teen at home, got nothing to do, crippled, deeply in love(yes.. love..or, some other word.. I just want you to get a picture of it xD) with someone and unluckily, there’s no other way to talk to that someone (and see that someone either.. except for pictures.. ehem..multiply..ehem)..

I barely have the courage to stand still next to her, you think it’s possible to ask her out? =|

I seriously don’t have the courage to say these things to her. I may seem gay by doing this indirectly. But I know, by the time she (or should I address it as you. you know who you are. right?) reads this, she may feel a little awkward or a bit contraction of her zygomaticus muscles.. She doesn’t know exactly who I am. But I wish that through my posts. At least she has an idea.

Yes. Hopeless, Gay, desperate. An ass.

Maybe she thinks I’m crazy. Well the truth is she’s the one making me. I may get too cocky when bored but hey, I’m not always bored xD

Maybe she hates me for being so assertive. But isn’t that what we all supposed to bein order to survive? xD

I hope my assumptions are wrong

oh well. the purpose of this post, is to indirectly say to her how I feel towards her. How I’m so desperate to see much clearer things about her. I want to know her better. Then I could make her much happy.

I just want her to be happy >__> And what I want for myself?

Is to be just the one giving her happiness. That’s all I want for me.

I know it’s too early, but it isn’t my fault that my mind has matured quite fast. or is it?.. But my point is, in early things like these, bad endings are inevitable But as i’ve said, it’s not my fault.

Falling in love or adoring people is unavoidable too.  I already know that this early..

I like you. More than I love soccer.

And please, I hope It’s not a mistake posting this here.  D:

If you were C6, and i were H12, all we would need is the air we breathe to be sweeter than sugar…Forget hydrogen you’re my number one element..how I wish I was an Ion so I could form an exothermic bond with U