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ツ why’s and what for’s

Posted: January 14, 2008 in ego, random-nes
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There’s a lot of stuff I do not understand, and even though I would ask my family, they cannot make me understand, I guess. Well if they can’t,  then no one can but my self I guess. But I don’t care. I just feel like posting this for people to know much of me; err my ideas I mean.

First thing. Going to church. I know it shows how childish I am, but I really don’t want to go to church. All Sundays, they force me to attend mass. Even though, they know how I feel and think about the religion, and I know myself that they do not care. Maybe because they cannot feel at all. The doubts that come in my mind, they have no idea. I completely disagree on everything the church says. I do not have proof but you know the instance when you start feel something wrong so you search for it and later on, you find that thing inside you but due to the harshness of the people around you, it’s very hard to express yourself most especially if it’s your family listening. That’s just one about why i hate religion so much.

Religion as a requirement not by school only but my family’s. I don’t know why people are crazy over it. Kill me if it’s too offensive but think of this first before doing so. WHY? I may sound weird with this stupid question. I know it is easy to answer but i have follow ups. WHY do we have to? err..* let me rephrase that* Why do you have to? you might answer me with a question; do i not believe that it’s true. To answer that. NO. I only partially believe.  Cause, first and fore most, All of the religions in the world as i’ve learned in Social Science, they all have the very same way of proving how stable their foundations are. Each proves how true their systems yet we, as mankind live only as one. We live in the same way as other humans do. But we believe different things. Look at the top view, we’re doing exactly the same and spotting the difference from that view might take the hell out of the ground. Bottom line is, we, mankind believe in different stuff yet we turn out to function as only one machine. Then what is the freaking purpose of these diversities (btw, the root of diversity i speak of is none other than this religion) ?

Let’s put it the simpler way. I don’t believe. They want me to. They do stuff to make me so. They ask me to go to church, i still don’t believe. And what is the damn purpose of that?!

I know that im weird. Get used to it. I live to be like this.  And i believe that i have my own purpose, everything i do, consciously and subconsciously, has its own purpose. Nobody interferes with that. No one.

And to my family. Please. You want me to go to church? force me? Fine. I go. But that wouldn’t change me. neither my ideas.

~why’s and what for’s to be continued~