i am emo and will be emo for the rest of the break.

i woke up 12 noon, as the way they do it, talking about people in love, the first thing that struck my mind was her. not my initial actions like brushing, washing my face, etc…

After i ate my breakfast,took a quick shower,  i opened my laptop and turned on the wifi so ill be emo with it the whole time on my bed. I tried to post something about the dorm stay i had experienced and the very tragic outbound. But i actually did nothing except wait. you know who i’ve been waiting for.

I turned off my computer and took a quick nap that lasted an hour. i took a bath, ate my dinner and once again on top of my bed. surprisingly, she was online for quite some time already. But same thing happened. the very same thing that happened few days ago. I became overexcited but speechless. I felt my heart pounding really hard. every time she types a word, it turns out to be pumping harder and harder. harder and harder.  till it reached the point where i decided to quit it and say bye instead. i became somehow very cocky but i know i did the right thing. Estelle, my friend of the day,  tried to help out but unfortunately for both of us, she’s already offline..

Brothers and sisters (gah, i believe im starting to sound like a gay priest talking about gay things, no offense), seriously, i know myself that i cant do it right without help and so ill be needing help from friends (e.g Estelle). Im really thankful btw..

sighs.

what in the hell is love? well, i’m still 14, almost 15.but i guess my knowledge about it is already sufficient for this post.

for many and for inexperienced, love brings up pleasure and acts like a brain-affecting drug such as caffeinated coffee, caffeine itself, mj, etc. they say, everytime you’re with your loved one, you feel like the earth transforms into a paradise depicted in lovely picture books, the place where no one has ever been to; the heaven. Unfotunately for me, I  find it only partially true.

When you feel love, things get more sophisticated. And it’s already bad in it’s thought due to the fact that life itself is already complex, put love in, it’s chaos.

you guys might be wondrin why I seem to be against it while my latest posts are abt my lovelife. to answer it, seriously, i only post things that disturb me and after posting, i feel a great relief. tsktsk as for this, i just get too paranoid of the things that might happen all regarding my previous posts.

hmm

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty FulfillerYou are responsible, reliable, and hardworking – you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you’re fully committed. For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don’t need romantic gestures to feel loved. At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable When other people don’t get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical

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tsktsk..

speaking of excitability, we’ll be staying overnight at the dorm tomorrow! =D that’s another energy level.. rrooyt sir manoop? >:)

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every second i stare at her, i feel my body tearing apart all the time i attempt to talk to her and bind my self to my position and i have no idea why such constraint is like a ticking time bomb which a lone can break my metal heart into million bits